It’s funny how a little bit of time off from work, a lot of time with family and friends, a staycation, and the ending of a calendar year can really change a person’s perspective.
While this year has not officially ended, there is a feeling of closure within me. As you all know, 2018 was my most difficult year. It started out with a real bang of a deeply traumatic experience which changed me completely. And in that traumatic experience, I found that I actually did not know myself at all — had not known myself for a while. It appeared that I had been wandering around ignoring problems and feelings. 2018 was my year to remember who I am, to deal with my problems and feelings head on, and to get to know myself again. While it has been a tough road, I see now that it was necessary. Oh, how I have grown! In ways I had never even imagined before.
It’s interesting. I have never thought too much about what New Year’s really means until this year. It’s an official sign of a new beginning. And TBH, I have never been more ready for a fresh start. Here’s where I’m at:
- It’s been two days since Christmas, and I have spent most of my time off organizing. I’ve cleaned out every closet (including the one with all my clothes in it!), every room, every nook and cranny of my home. I donated 7 huge, industrial sized trash bags, filled to the brim with things I no longer need, to charity. SEVEN! It’s amazing the things you can accumulate over the years, and not think twice about. Turns out, I don’t need ’em.
- I have gymed it up, every. single. damn. day. It’s felt great at times, and it’s felt terrible at times. But regardless of my motivation level, I’ve made it happen, and that’s what’s important.
- I have shopped a little bit, but haven’t really bought any clothes. I decided I don’t really want to fill my closet back up just yet until I land in a solid place on my fitness journey. 🙂
- I have cooked and cleaned. I have done mounds of laundry. I have put away the new stuff, reorganized the old stuff, and purged the stuff that needed to go.
- I’ve worked a little bit. Even though I told myself I wouldn’t.
- I am SO CLOSE to finishing my latest book from the library. Close enough to complete it by the end of my break. And I got a couple new books in my queue for the next round.
- I have spent good, quality time with people I love. It has made my heart full.
- I’ve thought about what I will do differently in my life next year, and what I will keep the same:
- I want to think kinder thoughts. In 2018, I let myself become too negative, inside and out. Next year, I will focus on keeping my thoughts as positive as possible inwardly, and hopefully that will show outwardly, too. Going forward, I will try to think positive thoughts, say my devotionals and affirmations to myself, and exude positivity when I can.
- I will do more things that bring me joy, and less things that don’t. Simple as that. No further explanation needed.
- I will read as much as possible — to learn, to be entertained, etc.
- I will continue to focus on getting to know myself, being the healthiest I can be, and exercising regularly. I still have a few months before I hit my goal of 365 consecutive workout days. It’s happening!
- I will continue to focus on important relationships in my life. The ones that matter most. Super Sweet Husband (Ty), family, friends.
- I will also continue to focus on my career path, and create more opportunities for learning, growth, and upward mobility.
- I will make informed decisions with confidence.
- I will NOT allow other people’s energy to overtake me. I will NOT fight other people’s battles. And I will NOT allow myself to get derailed or feel stuck because of anyone other than myself.
- I will try to live a little, without feeling guilty. Diet, exercise, whatever. I will never be perfect, and that’s okay.
Do you have thoughts or feelings about New Year’s? Resolutions? Anti-resolutions? Plans, goals, ideas? I want to hear about them.
In the meantime, check out the Peppermint Brownies In a Jar that I made for our neighbors tonight. I subbed almond flour for the regular flour. I added in a 1/2 cup of oats, and I used coconut sugar for the regular sugar. It’s not healthy, but it’s healthier…and I’m back on a strict diet on Wednesday, but doing the best I can for now.
Thanks for reading! Xo.